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But now, the last couple of months, everything have just been so good. I haven't had a reason to cry for so long, and that is totally akward to me. I have the feeling something is suppose to be bad, like a kind of low mood, but I can't thik of anything bad.

That is so not ME to be such a optimist.

I do wonder though, have I changed, like for life, or am I gonna go back to what I was before when I'm going back to Sweden?

Hahaha lol this post turned out very odd. I don't know if you understand what I meant, but what ever. I just felt I had to get it out of me....

It's not much to say about it, I have uploaded a lot of pictures at facebook.

See the pictures here :

It takes so long time to upload them here so just click the link and you can see al the photos! :D

Omg, that was the most freaked out thing I've even been through. Some of the other exchange students that was also there said that they were a bit disappointed and that they had expected more, but I have only one thing to say to that: What MORE could you possibly expect?

The whole thing is a religious celebration for Hindus. And what they are doing is they put people in to some kind of trans so they can't feel anything, then they pierce them and hang things in hooks in the skin. Then they walk up the stairs at Batu Caves and when they are up they take out the hooks and piercings and wake them up from the trans. They do it to kind of "Help the gods to carry the burden".

And btw, Batu Caves is a Hindu temple located in a cave, and to come there you climb the stairs which is sooo long...

I don't even know what to say more then CRAZY.

I think I'll just upload some pictures and then you can ask anything you like as a comment and I promise to answer.

This is what they all lookes like when they were in trans.

Someone in trans.

Here you can see the stairs but the picture, but the picture doesn't make it fare. The stair is DAMN LONG.

Yeh if you wanna know anything just ask me in the comment field...

I dreamed that I was going for an AFS camp, but then without any warning it was the end of the program and I was going home so they just put me on a plane home to Sweden. When i reached home I realized that I didn't even bring my bag and my stuff cus I didn't know I was going home when I went for the camp, but I figured out that I could just ask Kakak and Abang to sent it home to me so no worries. But then I suddenly remembered that I didn't get to say goodbye to everyone here, and that I never was gonna see Kayla and Myra and everyone again and then I started to cry hysterical and I felt so heartbroken thinking about that I was never again gonna see little Kayla and Myra's sweet faces.

Wow there is really so much, and so many people that I really gonna miss when I go home.

Crap.

I know that everyone at home want to know what I am doing and how I have it, but me life here have been so regular now. Or I mean, with routines and stuff, I do almost the sate things every day so there is not much to write about. I have been here for so long now so it's not really new for me.

So what do I do do at a regular day?

Well stand up 5.40, take a shower, eat something, go to my friends house where the bus pic us up at around 6.20-6.30. School starts at 7.20 and goes on until 1.05. After school I wait for the bus until around 2 then we go home and I'm usually home around 2.30-2.45. Then I shower eat, relax for like 15 min then I take off to the stable. There I groom and shower horses or do other things they need help with. Then at 6.30 I have to bicycle home cus it's dangerous to bicycle when it's dark, I MIGHT GET KIDNAPPED. Then when I come home I shower, eat, watch television or play with Kayla and Myra or something until I'm tired, then I go to bed.

Yeh that is basically what I do Monday-Friday every week.

Or actually yesterday (Friday) I stayed at the stable longer and then Omar fetch me home later since I didn't have to go to school today :D The stable it absolutely my favorite place, I like to be there so much!

So now it's weekend I have have lots of plans. Today I'm going to Tesco at 1 to buy things so I can make chokladbollar :D It's a desert, sedap! :DThen after that I'm going for a sleepover at my friends house in BJ. Then tomorrow I have to come back home early cus 9.30 I'm going out again. I tell you more about my weekend after it, and I promise to take lots of pictures. I don't have any new pics since last time I updated so no pics in this post today, sry!

Wow, so long time I wrote now. Sorry for that but it just feels like I'm kinda wasting my time by the computer all the time so I haven't been sitting by the computer so much the last month. During the holiday I was doing things almost all the time so I was very busy... But now Abang have convinced me that I totally should write my blog cus it's good for me, and also nice to my family at home. Which is very true.

So, what have I actually been up to during my holidays?

Well I went to Ipoh for a week and did some Malay dance. The dance part was kinda suck-ish, but it was still very fun cus I lived in the same house as Moritz, Björn and Lennart and Tim, 3 other exchange students from Germany, but I've already written about that in earlier posts.

Then I was at midstaycamp at Pangkor Island wich was very nice! We stayed at a hotel with pool and that was just 5 min from the beach. We also went on a tour with bus around on the Island and it was a very beautiful Island with nice beaches and nature!

That was in the beginning of december. Then I went out a lot with friends. Went to Sunway a couple of times, then on my birthday the 22 December I went with Lennart, Tim, Björn, Moritz and K. Fung to KL the whole day to celebrate my birthday and we had such a great day!

Then on the 23-26 December I was living with christian family to celebrate christmas wich was very nice. My family was so great and I had a really good time! It was of course very different from how we celebrate christmas in Sweden but still good. On christmas eve I was at a internet cafe playing COD, Neil tried to teach me and IT WAS SO FUN! I'm totally gonna start play that when I get home ;) hahah!

On the christmas day we went to church for christmass mass, then on the day we went around for a few open houses and on the evening of 25th I went to KLCC with Moritz, Tim and their hostfamily that they were staying with during christmas.

Then on Sunday we went to the church again for sunday mass and after that I went ut agin with Moritz and Tims family. We went to KL and went up the KL tower, awesome! :D

When I came home from the christian family I was at home for a few days. Went out some more with friends and then it was nexyear. At newyear Me, Moritz, Lennart, Björn and Tim was suppose to go together to KLCC, but Lennart, Björn and Tim totally screwed up and went for movie at Sunway at like 10pm (WTF GUYS!?). But me and Moritz still went to KLCC and it was LEGEN, wait for it... DARY! Seriously so awesome. We had so much fun, dancing, shouted for the countdown then watching the fireworks that was very nice. We also met a gang of guys from Iran there that we were talking to and that turned out to be really nice people, but not very good at english, haha... Around 1-1.30 we went to out chapter leaders (AFS person) house and "slept" there all of us (Me, Moritz, Lennart, Björn and Tim). Unforunately stupid me FORGOT MY CAMERA at New year :( SO STUPID!

Then the school started again on the 3rd, Monday. On that day I went to the stable again after a long brake. Actually on Mondays the club are usually closed but they had "Staff sports day", AND THEY INVITED ME TO JIN! HOW AWESOME ISN'T THAT? A sports day only for staff and they invited me, WOW. Unfortunately I couldn't come for the dinner later in the evening since it was at a Monday and I had to go to school Tuesday ;( But the next day when I came after school they had a medal for me, apperently my team got second place in the competition. We did fotball, archery and dart. I was not very good at anything (didn't even attend in the fotball XD) but I'm still soo proud of that medal <3 I so love to go to the club. Wait have I even written about that here before? I'm not sure... Anyway, there is a stable about 10 min (bycykle) from my house, so one day when when I was out bycykling I went in there and talked to them at the stable, and they are so nice to me and said that if I like to I can come everyday and help them out with taking care of the horses. IF I LIKE TO? OF COURSE I LIKE TO! I LOVE TO! So, after that I went there A LOT. Almost everyday for a while before christmas, then over christmas I was not at home so I didn't come for a week or so. But then when school started again (this week) I started comming again and this week I've been there ever day and it is really so great! I feel so happy comming there. Every day when I bicykle home I feel so good and I can not ceep myself from smiling all the way home. Hahah people around must thing I'm a totaly reatard smiling to myself. But no, I don't think they think so. It doesnt matter anyway, I don't care what they think cus I feel so good so nothing can get me in a bad mood then. Haha :D Everyone at the club are so nice, everyday when I come thew smile and wave to me and say HI LIISA! :D And they alwasy help me when I'm screwing up something, and they ask me all the time "are you okey Lisa". They buy drinks and stuff for me although I don't even ask for it. They offer to drive me home when it rains so I don't have to bicycle in the rain and somehtimes I'm going home at the same time as a guy that is driving the motorbike and then he drives slow after me almost all the way home just to mak sure I come safe home. HOW SWEET ISN'T THAT? So Abang and Kakak, you have NOTHING to worry about when I go there, I'm SAFE, and it makes me happy.

Actually by now I thought I would feel very homesick. But you know what? I don't... I haven't felt very homesick at all. I had a period in the beginning when I felt a bit homesick, but after that nothing. Or well, I have bad days sometimes, but everyone have bad days. Right not I thing more like "I don't wanna go home, I don't wanna leave everything and everyone here in July!". Of course I miss my friends, especally Ylva, I'm sprry I can not be with you now when you need me baby <3 But there are so much here I've fallen in love with and that I'm gonna miss SO MUCH when I go back to Sweden.

Anyway, eveyone ask me "How's school?", school is good. It feels a bit empty without form 5 now though. I really liked them, so many awesome for 5 students! :D But school feels better this year than last year actually. This year I know better kind of "what to do". Not only where to go and stuff but also who are my friends and who I like to be with. Of course I want to be friends with everyone! But last year I was more trying to hang out with everyone and see like who is my type, who do I like to be with the most and I have found my favoutes. I like evryone, or at least mostof them, but best I like to talk to Nani, Jannah, Iman and their "gang". Many people say they are kinda childish and stuff but so what? We always have so much fun stuff to talk about.

And then I have Tims class next door wich is great. Tim, Fung and that "gang" is also so nice people. I remember a AFS volounteer say to me and Tim in the beginning fot he year that we probably gonna end up not liking each other, I have no idea why she said that and that is absolutely not true. Tim is a awesome guy ;) Then of course Aru, Losh, Lettisha and them... And yeh there are a lot of nice people in school. And next week we start with "after school activities". I'm going for badminton and some english thingie. I'm not sure I'm gonna go for the english tingie though cus I wanna have as much time as I can get at the stable! Haha..

Yeh what els is there to tell? I see now this turned out to be a very long post. Hope you enjoy reading it. Personally I do notlike to read very long post, but you just have to bare with it! :D Haha

The following text is for my beloved grandparent:

Hej lära mor- och farföräldrar! Hoppas allt är bra med er, med mig ät allt bra. Jag började skolan igen denna veckan efter att ha haft lov I 6 veckor. Under lover gjorde jag en massa saker. Jag var i Ipoh och Pangkor Island och var även ute en massa med mina vänner här. På min födelsedag var jag och 4 andra utbytesstudenter från tyskland och en kille här från Malaysia i Kuala Lumpur och firade min födelsedag. Det var en rigktigt rolig day som jag aldrig kommer glömma. Sedan över jul bodde jag I en kristen familj och firade jul med dem. Det var en annorlunda jul men jag hade det väldigt bra ändå. Hoppas er jul var bra och att ni have det trevligt utan mig också.

På fritiden, så ofta jag har tid, går jag till ett stall som ligger inte så långt här ifrån och hjälper till med att ta hand om hästarna och det är så roligt! Alla där är så snälla mot mig och jag älskar verkligen att spendera tid där! Jag tror att det är mycket pågrund av att jag är så glad när jag går dit som gör att jag inte har längtathem så mycket. Visst har jag dåliga dagar ibland men det harväl alla? Jag har det verkligen så bra här och trots att det är ungefär 6 månader kvar känns det redan sorgligt att jag måste åka hem igen.

Värmen har jag också blivit vam vid. 25 grader I malysia är ganska kallt, och de dagar när det är runt 25 så FRYSER jag om jag sitter under en fläkt. Det känns ganska sjukt en jag går till och med omkring i kofta vissa dagar, och långbyxor varje dag. Ush hur ska jag klara mig när jag kommer tillbaka till Sverige?

Jag hoppas ni har det bra och mår bra där hemma, jag tänker på er ofta och hoppas att ni inte saknar mig för mycket. Nu är det ju bara halva tiden kvar sen ses vi igen!

Många varma goa kramar till mina kära mor och farföräldrar hemma i kalla Sverige, jag älskar er, ta hand om er!

Wow, so long time I wrote now. Sorry for that but it just feels like I'm kinda wasting my time by the computer all the time so I haven't been sitting by the computer so much the last month. During the holiday I was doing things almost all the time so I was very busy... But now Abang have convinced me that I totally should write my blog cus it's good for me, and also nice to my family at home. Which is very true.

So, what have I actually been up to during my holidays?

Well I went to Ipoh for a week and did some Malay dance. The dance part was kinda suck-ish, but it was still very fun cus I lived in the same house as Moritz, Björn and Lennart and Tim, 3 other exchange students from Germany, but I've already written about that in earlier posts.

Then I was at midstaycamp at Pangkor Island wich was very nice! We stayed at a hotel with pool and that was just 5 min from the beach. We also went on a tour with bus around on the Island and it was a very beautiful Island with nice beaches and nature!

That was in the beginning of december. Then I went out a lot with friends. Went to Sunway a couple of times, then on my birthday the 22 December I went with Lennart, Tim, Björn, Moritz and K. Fung to KL the whole day to celebrate my birthday. Then when I came home my family had bought a cake for me. It was different but so great birth day!

Then on the 23-26 December I was living with christian family to celebrate christmas wich was very nice. My family was so great and I had a really good time! It was of course very different from how we celebrate christmas in Sweden but still good. On christmas eve I was at a internet cafe playing COD, Neil tried to teach me and IT WAS SO FUN! I'm totally gonna start play that when I get home ;) hahah!

On the christmas day we went to church for christmass mass, then on the day we went around for a few open houses and on the evening of 25th I went to KLCC with Moritz, Tim and their hostfamily that they were staying with during christmas.

Then on Sunday we went to the church again for sunday mass and after that I went ut agin with Moritz and Tims family. We went to KL and went up the KL tower, awesome! :D

When I came home from the christian family I was at home for a few days. Went out some more with friends and then it was nexyear. At newyear Me, Moritz, Lennart, Björn and Tim was suppose to go together to KLCC, but Lennart, Björn and Tim totally screwed up and went for movie at Sunway at like 10pm (WTF GUYS!?). But me and Moritz still went to KLCC and it was LEGEN, wait for it... DARY! Seriously so awesome. We had so much fun, dancing, shouted for the countdown then watching the fireworks that was very nice. We also met a gang of guys from Iran there that we were talking to and that turned out to be really nice people, but not very good at english, haha... Around 1-1.30 we went to out chapter leaders (AFS person) house and "slept" there all of us (Me, Moritz, Lennart, Björn and Tim). Unforunately stupid me FORGOT MY CAMERA at New year :( SO STUPID!

Then the school started again on the 3rd, Monday. On that day I went to the stable again after a long brake. Actually on Mondays the club are usually closed but they had "Staff sports day", AND THEY INVITED ME TO JIN! HOW AWESOME ISN'T THAT? A sports day only for staff and they invited me, WOW. Unfortunately I couldn't come for the dinner later in the evening since it was at a Monday and I had to go to school Tuesday ;( But the next day when I came after school they had a medal for me, apperently my team got second place in the competition. We did fotball, archery and dart. I was not very good at anything (didn't even attend in the fotball XD) but I'm still soo proud of that medal <3 I so love to go to the club. Wait have I even written about that here before? I'm not sure... Anyway, there is a stable about 10 min (bycykle) from my house, so one day when when I was out bycykling I went in there and talked to them at the stable, and they are so nice to me and said that if I like to I can come everyday and help them out with taking care of the horses. IF I LIKE TO? OF COURSE I LIKE TO! I LOVE TO! So, after that I went there A LOT. Almost everyday for a while before christmas, then over christmas I was not at home so I didn't come for a week or so. But then when school started again (this week) I started comming again and this week I've been there ever day and it is really so great! I feel so happy comming there. Every day when I bicykle home I feel so good and I can not ceep myself from smiling all the way home. Hahah people around must thing I'm a totaly reatard smiling to myself. But no, I don't think they think so. It doesnt matter anyway, I don't care what they think cus I feel so good so nothing can get me in a bad mood then. Haha :D Everyone at the club are so nice, everyday when I come thew smile and wave to me and say HI LIISA! :D And they alwasy help me when I'm screwing up something, and they ask me all the time "are you okey Lisa". They buy drinks and stuff for me although I don't even ask for it. They offer to drive me home when it rains so I don't have to bicycle in the rain and somehtimes I'm going home at the same time as a guy that is driving the motorbike and then he drives slow after me almost all the way home just to mak sure I come safe home. HOW SWEET ISN'T THAT? So Abang and Kakak, you have NOTHING to worry about when I go there, I'm SAFE, and it makes me happy.

Actually by now I thought I would feel very homesick. But you know what? I don't... I haven't felt very homesick at all. I had a period in the beginning when I felt a bit homesick, but after that nothing. Or well, I have bad days sometimes, but everyone have bad days. Right not I thing more like "I don't wanna go home, I don't wanna leave everything and everyone here in July!". Of course I miss my friends, especally Ylva, I'm sprry I can not be with you now when you need me baby <3 But there are so much here I've fallen in love with and that I'm gonna miss SO MUCH when I go back to Sweden.

Anyway, eveyone ask me "How's school?", school is good. It feels a bit empty without form 5 now though. I really liked them, so many awesome for 5 students! :D But school feels better this year than last year actually. This year I know better kind of "what to do". Not only where to go and stuff but also who are my friends and who I like to be with. Of course I want to be friends with everyone! But last year I was more trying to hang out with everyone and see like who is my type, who do I like to be with the most and I have found my favoutes. I like evryone, or at least mostof them, but best I like to talk to Nani, Jannah, Iman and their "gang". Many people say they are kinda childish and stuff but so what? We always have so much fun stuff to talk about.

And then I have Tims class next door wich is great. Tim, Fung and that "gang" is also so nice people. I remember a AFS volounteer say to me and Tim in the beginning fot he year that we probably gonna end up not liking each other, I have no idea why she said that and that is absolutely not true. Tim is a awesome guy ;) Then of course Aru, Losh, Lettisha and them... And yeh there are a lot of nice people in school. And next week we start with "after school activities". I'm going for badminton and some english thingie. I'm not sure I'm gonna go for the english tingie though cus I wanna have as much time as I can get at the stable! Haha..

Yeh what els is there to tell? I see now this turned out to be a very long post. Hope you enjoy reading it. Personally I do notlike to read very long post, but you just have to bare with it! :D Haha

Everyone knows IKEA and because of IKEA they also know meatballs. The older people knows about ABBA and ROXETT, the ones interested in fotball knows Zlatan and those who like golf knows Annika Sörenstam. Everyone also know about VOLVO and thoes extra interested in cars knows königsegg. What more? Yeh Absolute Vodka of course. But that's mainly the other exchange students from Germany who knows about that. A lot of people seem to think Sweden and Switzerland are the same country though, and a lot of people ask me if we speak German in Sweden, and the answer to that is NO, we speak SWEDISH. :)

I bet I've forgot something now but never mind...

There is also a lot of people asking me where I live, and most people don't know where Gothenburg is so I made a picture! :D

Last Wednesday I went with Abang Azril with family to his grandma to her place in Negran Sembilan during Hari Raya Ahad (or is it like that? :P). We didn't do much there but it's always fun to be with them s it was nice :)

Ans yeah right I almost forgot, I was at a shopping mall, 1Utama with Kamal Hafiz and 3 of his friends. We saw the new harry potter, went bowling and some other stuff. Really nice! :D

Monster baby!

Super tiny clothes... Who could fit them? Not even babys are that small!

Bought a lot of stuff, including this bag which I rly rly like! :D

The next day on Saturday I had a AFS Camp over night at Bukit chakarap or something like thath XD First day we sent climbing....

My favourite pic! Hahaha....

Yeeeh, more photos on FB....

I'm so seriously tired rightnow. I barley even sleps anything Sat-Sun, adn yesterday I went to bed late then went up rly early today... But today I'm gonna sleep early and apparently it was last day in school today so I don't have to go up quite so early anymore!

OMG I just realized it is NOVEMBER. November is usually freaking cold and wet and depressing and dark but I'm not freezing, I don't feel depressed and it is not darker that any other day... Wonder why ;) hahaha. For everyone here that wonder how it is in Sweden right now. It's raining A LOT, like constantly raining for weeks (almost) and the day is short, it is dark when you go to school and it is dark when you go home (or of course that depends on when you end school but lets say it starts to get dark at around 5 in the afternoon, or even earlier?). Sometimes it is snowing in November too, that is kinda rare though. It is really cold too, around 0 degrees.

Here is a pic at my brother and my cat Sudden from maaaaany years ago, but as you can se the trees doesn't have any leafs, all the leafs fall of in the winter and then grow back out in the spring.

Here is another one. I Don't think this is in November though, it looksmore like February. But still, it's winter. The white thing he's standing on is ice.

Here in one taken in December, at you can see - SNOW. Old pic though.

And here in one taken 2 years ago or smtn like that. It's me and my best friend who goes sledding, or should I say TRY to go sledding. We went down 3 meters, then we landed in a pine bush, you know what that is? I don't think any bushes like that in Malaysia but they have this prickly things on them anyway (like the things on my face). It hurt like hell but it was damn fun, I remember we lay in that bush laughing for a looong time... I miss you Ylva <3

This pic is most likely not from in November either, but maybe December or January?

Btw, lots of people are asking me if I'm homesick, and the answer is - I don't know. I honestly don't know.

I know it sounds weird (and believe me it feels weird too), how can you don't know if you miss home of not? Well let me put it this way, I like it here. I really like Imran, Kayla, Myra and my friends here and since I've been here for so long this have now started to feel like home. BUT I'm also really looking forward to the day I'm going home, I can't wait until I get to go home and meet everyone I love at home and tell them about everything here. BUT at the same time as I really looking forward to that day, that day is going to be rally sad because that is going to be the day when I have to leave everything here. Everything I've built up here, all the people I've got to know and I don't even want to think about leaving Myra, Kyla and Imran here without knowing if I'll ever see them again. So, I want to go home, but I don't want to leave this. It's a weird feeling.

I do miss my best friend Ylva very much though. I mean really really much. Even really really really really much. That kinda sucks.